December is Here!

Well December is finally her. No word on my smart car. Now, I have get through the holiday blues. This is going into my second year since I separated from my ex. Last year I was able to spend a lot of time with my daughter so it wasn't so bad. This is my first year I've lived out of state. I moved over 650 miles from here and it is very expensive to go see here, so I wont be able to see her for the holidays. I want to save my time off for next summer so she can be with. Its not how I planned for her to grow up. I do call her every day. But now we run out of things to talk about. I don't want to not call, so I call and just ask her how her day is going. I hope as she grows up, that she will understand more.

Christmas is going to be really hard on me.

I'm looking forward to getting the car, that is if I can afford getting the financing. I don't just want financing at any cost. I want to be able to afford the payments, and get low interest rates. I also need no money down, So I don't know how that will work. I hope I can save some for the down payment. I've tried to pay allot of the marital bills down. You know the bills you have as a married person. My goal is to get rid of all bills we shared. Doing that, I've not saved money for the down payment. this could stop me from getting my car. Well see.